Been having a heavy heart, nobody is worried but i am... to me its insecure! i feel bothered by it...

im glad that today i finally feel on task, i had to wake up early for some remedial but im learning, the rest of the day went pretty well also but im still very quiet. yes no doubt joking and playing with ling is fun... but inside i feel feeling-less. unless my mind remind me that im with ling, if not i will just walk. today had kinda been like that, somethings fine, sometimes quiet. i didnt explain anything to anyone, because i dont know how to. i wanna keep feeling on task, i was lost, now that i found it, i dont want to lose it.

i stood far to look at it, i hope something about it has change but most of the time it remains the same. i could have step forward, go closer but i didnt, for i know if i do, i might not be able to stop myself for tearing.